9:30AM. Monday morning's are so difficult.
The whole day is a slow-motion "trying to get out of bed when you don't want to" scene.
Everyone understands what that means.
We've all done it, usually as children, when mom or dad is yelling at you to get out of bed and come have breakfast (or whatever).
You move one leg over the side of the bed
and think, in 5 minutes I'll get out of bed
Sometimes I lie there and think, I am really
moving even if I don't seem to be
- I am just moving very very slowly
So most Monday's seem that way to me.
I spend the entire morning getting prepared, so-called "catching up" (on what??
I mean, I cleared my desk on Friday so I can start fresh on Monday!), and by the time I am ready to rock and roll, it's time to go home. What is THAT
The items on my desk are huge projects.
Franklin Covey would have a field day with me.
I tend to get rid of all the little things - and there are a hundred of them
- instead of tending to the big important things.
The problem is that the little things are usually interruptions from senior management and due to adminstrivia which is required for the good of my departmet.
Given that, the big strategic "projects" get put on the shelf until I am in the state I find myself this morning.
No administrivia to attend to!
This means I am going to have to dive headfirst into one of my big projects.
And that would mean a whole half or full day of attention.
Having a low attention span, the thought of this is absolutely daunting.
What to do what to do what do...
Maybe I'll eat my second apple of the day.
An apple a day keeps the doctor away.
But two apples a day can help keep the work at bay.
Hmm.... I kinda like the sounds of that.
But, I'll save it for later.
Not too terribly hungry right now.
I might go and get more coffee instead.
That sounds good.
I am trying out this new format with the times I post.
It makes me crazy when I go and read a blog and their posts are chunked up with new titles and headlines and all sorts of confusing stuff.
And it's not in chronological order. Which also makes me crazy!
So, this way, I can keep track of stuff all day and hopefully post once a day at the end of the day when things like this should posted in the first place.
I got the coffee. I even stood there and watched it being made. How's that for procrastination. Of course, now I am thinking that tea might have been a better choice. Why is office coffee SO BAD??
There seems to be universal market on bad coffee by Corporate America Coffee Suppliers. So instead of sending this stuff overseas (like they do with bad chicken parts - long story - and Gerber's baby food),
the Corporate America Coffee Suppliers send them to Corporate America. And that is why Overseas Coffee always seem to taste so good and why Corporate America coffee is is uniformly bad.
So, I sat in on a session this afternoon. I arranged for a vendor to come in an compare and contrast their database to Oracle's database. As well as other lofty topics. IBM was presenting on DB2. UDB if you are not
a purist. I sat there with my group - a very technical bunch - and listened to the back and forth discussions.
For the first time in a long time, a 3-hour session held my interest
For the first time in a long time, I felt as if I was learning
It makes me wish for the old days when what I did seemingly had more meaning and impact
than my current job seemingly has today
. I use the word "seemingly
" because some people tell me that what I do is valuable - representing the interests of a group of technical people to senior management, who might not quite understand the interests of such a group.
Anyway, it was heartening to know that even though I might not be able to put fingers to keyboard and actually do the work,
understand the concepts - even with the technology changes since I've done this work hands on.
So, I came back to my desk and fielded a few phone calls, one of which is from an SVP in a business unit that we support, talking to me about the budget, etc. (because everyone is cutting back), and I sat here wondering what the hell
it is that I am doing and how important it might be to push paper money around. At the end of the day, the work will
get done, regardless of who is willing to pay for what. The problem is that WHO
will ACTUALLY DO
the work is often determined by how much of a bill we can send to the business. This means that if we cut back as a result of their often unrestrained cutting, we don't have the ability to support them when they come knocking on our doors again. Which they will.
They know it. I know it. And some things just never change. Regardless of who is in power today versus yesterday. After all, an egg is and egg is an egg, even though the bottom line might be a FAT OLE GOOSEGG
Now, I sit here a bit dejected, knowing I have to fly to California tomorrow for what I consider to be a Major PR Boondoggle
(going to visit Oracle Corp with half of the "DBA Powers That Be Across The Firm") and wondering if I could be doing something more constructive somewhere else.
I have got to stop going to worthwhile workshops
. It's just too damn depressing, indicative that ignorance truly is bliss.